Personal Doubts

It's a good thing that so far I haven't felt totally inept academically while here, simply because I haven't thought much about it. The moments do come up and that's when I start telling myself that it was a mistake to come here. I start wondering if people in the office and people I meet outside of the office who know I'm doing this project look at me and think, "Wow... couldn't they have gotten someone better to do this?" And I'd have to agree with that assessment. I'm really only a mediocre student with thoughts that I suppose sometimes border on smart, but are nowhere near radically clever, cutting edge, or outside of the box. Often my brain doesn't work fast enough for these thoughts to even make their way out of my mouth. It's unfortunate.

I just need to keep reminding myself that we're all human and that I'm only a student and the main goal of me even being here is to learn. There is something endearing about an eager learner, right? Of course I can always strive for a radically clever, cutting edge, and/or outside of the box moment, but more than likely they will pass me by in a flurry of flusteredness.